Who Will I Be When I Die?

I have never claimed to understand where my thoughts go, or why they go where they do ... I just go with it...

Today I was laying in bed, happily anticipating the nap I was planning to have when my thoughts started swirling, and I wondered, "Who will I be when I die?"

Sounds silly doesn't it. I dissected my thoughts. What my inner self was really asking is, am I living my life the way I want to be remembered when I am gone. Am I treating people in a manner that they would truly miss me if I wasn't here? Am I someone who is making a positive impact/difference in the lives of others? Am I living up to my full potential? Do I practice kindness and humanity? Do I genuinely care about my world and those in it? Do I practice optimism as opposed to pessimism? Do I see the beauty and remember to stop and smell the roses? Do I take enough time to truly enjoy my world? Do I remember to breath...laugh...love? Am I truly living or just going through the motions, one minute at a time?

I wondered, will I be one of the ones whose demise causes those around them, those who knew and loved them to say with a smile, "Ahhh, she was one of the good ones, she will be missed." Or, will they speak in hushed whispers behind upheld hands "Not to speak ill of the dead...but..."

I want to be the first scenario. While I may not always succeed I try to be that person.

Who will you be when you die?

My Kitchen...Imagination Station

I went grocery shopping yesterday and while I walked down the seafood aisle I noticed ground salmon. Interesting, ground salmon. I picked up a couple of packages, thinking I can find something to do with this.

I came home and unpacked my groceries. I looked at that ground salmon and started thinking.

I decided I make homemade fish cakes for my girls, instead of the frozen crap that is pre-chewed and then pressed together prior to being breaded. I hate mechanically separated meats, it always seems to "regurgitated".

This morning my youngest, slug girl, mentioned that she needed new undies. While I was shopping for those I wandered around the store. As I aimlessly went up and down the aisles I had a thought, an idea ...I KNEW just what I was going to do with that salmon.

I raced to the canned meat aisle. I picked up a can of cocktail shrimp and a can of crab meat.

Once I arrived home I got busy.

I mixed the ground salmon, crab and shrimp together. I sprinkled some black pepper, some dill and a little bit of celery seed, along with finely diced celery and thinly slice green onion into the fish mix. I combined it all. Then I added one egg to provide binding, and some fine bread crumbs. I mixed it all together.

I sprinkled some bread crumbs onto a plate, into it I mixed a bit of seasoning salt, some black pepper and some dill into it.

Taking some salmon mixture I formed a patty, which I then coated in the bread crumb mixture. I repeated the process until all the salmon mixture had been used.

I pan fried them in butter (fattening but ooohhhhh so good) until they were crispy golden brown. Sooooo tasty.

Now they will go into the freezer for yet another make ahead meal for the girls.

I like being inventive. I have never seen ground salmon before, but I will be buying it again.